A very human day. Found solace in Lewis.

God has not been trying an experiment on my faith or love in order to find out their quality. He knew it already. It was I who didn’t. In this trial He makes us occupy the dock, the witness box, and the bench all at once. He always knew that my temple was a house of cards. His only way of making me realize the fact was to knock it down.

Talk to me about the truth of religion and I’ll listen gladly. Talk to me about the duty of religion and I’ll listen submissively. But don’t come talking to me about the consolations of religion or I shall suspect that you don’t understand.

We were promised sufferings. They were part of the program. We were even told, ‘Blessed are they that mourn,’ and I accept it. I’ve got nothing that I hadn’t bargained for. Of course it is different when the thing happens to oneself, not to others, and in reality, not imagination.

I once read the sentence ‘I lay awake all night with a toothache, thinking about the toothache an about lying awake.’ That’s true to life. Part of every misery is, so to speak, the misery’s shadow or reflection: the fact that you don’t merely suffer but have to keep on thinking about the fact that you suffer. I not only live each endless day in grief, but live each day thinking about living each day in grief.

Now there is nothing but time. Almost pure time, empty successiveness.

(Excerpts from ‘A Grief Observed’ CS Lewis)

What a way to begin!

Zachary wants to be a  Navy fighter pilot when he grows up. His head is always in the clouds, or in a book. This flight to Trinidad was especially memorable for both my boys. As soon as we boarded the airplane and without hesitation, my mom ( Grandma is a rock star) asked the flight attendant if Zack could peek into the cockpit. The pilot and co pilot….to our surprise….got up and allowed both boys to sit in their seats for a good 5mins…..dream come true for Zack…. their kindness choked me up a bit….I knew this trip was going to be different..However, I did not expect the many blessings, traveling mercies and kindness of strangers along they way.

Sidenote: I would like to say that I dress them in matching shirts for strategic purposes ….but to be honest…I’m gonna do it as long as they let me..I know my time is short!






19 Interesting facts about Trinidad and Tobago


I will be sharing a few special moments from our  trip….. as soon as I organize and edit them.

I really enjoyed reading these facts about Trinidad:

19 Interesting Things I Learned about Trinidad and Tobago

5 Questions to Ask Before Posting To Social Media


Too good not to share..I will definitely be asking myself these questions before putting ‘stuff’ out there..(click link below to read article)

“In absence of guidelines for healthy and polite social media etiquette, we are left to determine our own boundaries for navigating the seemingly endless opportunities available to us.Before we snap one more picture of our hot chocolate topped with a foam leaf, perhaps we would benefit from a brief pause—an extra 30 seconds to ask five simple questions might suggest it’s time to unplug, or at least reconsider when and how we use social media.”


Wendy’s in Europe!


Wendy is my favorite fashion blogger (Like seriously…I would wear EVERY SINGLE outfit she styles!)

I love that she’s modest without sacrificing style..isn’t that what true fashion is ….or at least can be.

Wendy dresses for the petite body. She mixes high end brands with more affordable selections and although she is always in-trend, her style is  uniquely hers..I admire that.

Find her here at Wendy’s Lookbook:


Everyone has a story..Life is never predictable….and I think… not going through at least one tragedy in your lifetime.. is in itself a tragedy.

A bit about Wendy:

” I went through foster care, carried my belongings in a trash bag and worried about being homeless at the age of 18.  I worked three jobs in high school to save enough money to go to college and as a result feel truly blessed to have had the opportunity to do so.  I finished high school with honors, emancipated from the foster care system, and went to the University of California, Berkeley, where I graduated with a bachelor’s degree in Psychology.” (Wendy Nguyen)


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Aldi told me that she was from Australia and that she and her fiancé (Rob) loved to travel the world so although it was last minute, she wanted to have a single 10″ atlas pinwheel shipped asap to the Four Seasons in San Fransisco. I made the pinwheel and two extra tiny ones which I later found out she used in her hair and on her grooms jacket.

Aldi and Rob eloped in June. She wore red tights, made a non-invitation(you have to read it), and wore a ‘yes’ pin that she made herself from clay. Aldi used the single pinwheels as her bouquet but really it was a statement of their love for traveling the world. She held that pinwheel all day…  her pics brought tears to my eyes and so much gratitude in my heart for what I ‘get’ to be a small part of every day…you never know what’s on the other side… I pray I never take this unique opportunity for granted.



photo credit: Gladys Jem

Oh Danny Boy!

This is me trying to write a serious, non-serious post about why I get a lil flustered when i hear those two words combined….Daniel….. Craig…..*sigh*

The man is unquestionably gorgeous( we know this)….but why is Daniel Craig so gosh darn appealing ???

 My sister finds this Daniel fixation to be a bit amusing and sophomoric. She doesn’t see it.


I’ve figured it out…

It’s the mystery behind the man….his personal life ( as well as in the Bond character) that gives him the appeal.

He might be a psychotic mess…but we don’t know…and therein lies the appeal.

Mystery…. I’ve come to realize……is safer in fantasy….. certainly not in reality!