Last week I found myself making an order for 250 pinwheels at the kitchen table, tears streaming down my cheeks, and me questioning myself…”Does this even matter?” “Does this advance God’s kingdom?” “How long will I be doing this?” “It’s such an odd way to earn a living…so hard to explain to others…. Would it be a more valuable thing in life to go into missions, sell everything, be a martyr of some sort?”
In my heart, I am convinced that if God called me to leave everything and go…I would be ready and not look back. Part of this conviction is a sense of urgency within me to share the gospel at any cost… and part of it is because I am sometimes unable to find a healthy balance of joy from our business. If I rejoice in these successes am I being too worldly/prideful? If I ignore our successes, am I being ungrateful and untrue to my passion? Confused by what side to take… either extreme seeming sinful. I decided to skip both options and go for the 3rd …a redeemed position?
I was inspired by greatness! The greatness I saw in my Dad has been a driving force in my life. My Dad is passionate, successful, he is the best at what he does and he has always inspired a drive in me. Greatness can do that, inspire you.
Jesus tells us what greatness looks like: Luke 9
46 Then his disciples began arguing about which of them was the greatest. 47 But Jesus knew their thoughts, so he brought a little child to his side. 48 Then he said to them, “Anyone who welcomes a little child like this on my behalf welcomes me, and anyone who welcomes me also welcomes my Father who sent me. Whoever is the least among you is the greatest.”
Searching outward for approval from others to fill the emptiness inside is sinful AND rejecting ambition does not make you humble. Jesus gave an answer to the question “how can we be great?”
Mark 9 says “He who is willing to serve” is the greatest of all.
YES, YES! We should desire to be great! Greatness has a face!
God wants us to humbly serve others. This frees us up from so many things, as Mark Driscoll says in one of his sermons titled,” Redeeming Greatness“:
Freedom from not living for the praise of others.
Freedom from competition and unhealthy comparisons, which can kill community.
Freedom to humbly serve others out of love (not using people for your convenience)
God’s generosity has made us surrender to Him in ways we never expected. My heavenly father knows every detail, desire, hope, wish, longing, secret of my heart known and unknown to me, and he has chosen to bless us specifically in this unique way. It blows my mind. It makes me want to give it all back to Him as a gift. Knowing that if I gave it all to Him I will be choosing exponentially the better thing!
My earthly father inspired a desire for greatness within me. My heavenly father graciously allowed me to fulfill my passions in a great way! WHAT A GIFT!
Today I got a message from a UK publisher requesting to publish one of our creations in a popular craft book. I don’t know how these opportunities find me, I don’t seek them but they come. Instead of crying at the ‘futility of it all’. I felt a rush of joy, in awe of His providing hand and completely satisfied….feeling a nod and a wink from God that touches the very soul of me, I would let it go in an instant if He asked me to ,for His pleasure, but He has given us bread for today and I am satisfied!
PHOTO CREDIT goes to the wonderful, Jenny Cordero: http://dear-grace.com